Fucking spent 12 hours playing dark souls 2 and I didnt realize it was Easter at 9:30 PM
I will only bring you misery.
I’m leaving soon,
but it seems I’m already gone.
I’ve been in your shoes
and I do not want to watch you relive me.
I’m already dead,
and I won’t let you join me.
your restless nights
are wasted on me.
I cannot do this with you
or anybody else.
I must remain alone.
The more I ponder it, the more I realize that this hole that I have bore into my life is immedicable.
And every time I ponder this it becomes larger, until it seems to be self-consuming.
Not quite, I was Band Formal King
Silly as that may sound.
I actually don’t think our school crowns a Prom King or Queen.
Is this some sort of coming of age?
Leaving behind all of my friends, my passions, my family…. will I stay the same or become a new person?
I have so tenative of a grasp on who I am now… and I was only just starting to become something greater than I once was.
But it seems like it all will disappear.
I am not scared of a new life, I am scared of losing my old life. I fear losing famiiarity. I fear I will become more reclusive than I already am.
But it is inevitable.
Even the people that I thought I knew or thought I cared for are becoming less close. I understand them less. They do not need my like I once needed them.
And what of love?
I suppose it’s been dead since last year.